Hello everyone
I am new to this board, but have been reading others comments etc and thought it would be a good place to post this dilemma I am having. Hopefully maybe someone can help clear my head....
Ok, I think I have a massive crush on my boss. I am working as admin support to someone temporarily for 9 months. He is about 20 years older than me (i'm in my 30s) and at first I never looked at him like that at all. Then one day I got a bit of flirty attention from him and Bamm!! I am thinking about him pretty much 24/7 - obsessive much??
anyways, he is pretty much very happilly married and I think he got the impression that I fancied him cause all of a sudden he came to work and mentioned "my wife and I" in a conversation, after being cold with me all morning - talk about embarrassing!! And since then I have been so careful not to let him think I am crushing on him, but I think he still thinks so (or it might be my paranoia). I feel so flat about the whole thing. before it was actually making me feel so high to think this high-powered man might be attracted to me, and now it's like "borrrrring".
the other day he was being very friendly with one of the other women (who I suspect fancies him too) and it made me so jealous - how pathetic is that? It's actually making me grumpy in the office and annoyed because he won't ask about my weekend or any other personal conversation (he did before) cause I think he is avoiding me thinking that he wants me if that makes sense.
I also get the impression he is mocking me cause each time I turned round to ask him something yesterday (I sit right in front of him) he looked like he was on the verge of laughter - Yeah great, laugh at me then why don't you!!
Anyways I just wanted to share that I hate feeling like this and him rebuffing me has actually made me feel unattractive whereas before I was buzzing and felt very attractive - how sad is that??
How can I stop crushing on him when I work nearly 8 hours a day near him?? Anyone had this experience?
