Hi all,
I posted about 4 weeks ago when my partner left me. Things had been so amazing between us.. and we have always got on so well. But I have been going through a really stressful time and messed up one sunday when going to meet him and his daughter.. my head just wasn't in anywhere near the 'right' place and I was stupid. Now he just refers back to me letting his daughter down when he says why our relationship is over - because technically there is no other reason for us to be apart!
Today he brought back something which had been left behind at his and I saw him.. He eventually saw me before almost driving off and we chatted.. He tells me he misses me, he wipes away my tears, he hugged me over 10 times, before kissing me on the neck, head and on the lips at one point, to which I pulled away and said he shouldn't have done that.. He tells me he still has feelings for me etc and that we can 'chat' whenever, when I explained this wouldn't be such a good idea due to cross purposes - i.e. I want him back and he just wants to be friends that it will all end in misery.. I just don't get it at all. He said before he left that it was good to see me and really good to talk to me.. which just makes it much worse for me to bear.. as when we are together it is lovely.. truly. I explained how I feel.. rationally I hasten to add. when he hugged me I said I had missed him so much. He doesn't do paln, as he says he dusts himself down and gets on with it. So whereas my heart breaks into lots and lots of pieces he just doesn't seem affected.
Can anyone shed any help on this please? I really truly do not understand this at all.. and have been suffering to 'get over' him and now this. The pain is unbearable. Please help me understand.
Fluff x
